This is how i felt today. In the morning, i found out what a bloody bitch one of my friend’s friend is. Omg, that bloody two-faced bitch eh. I have never met another person who is like that. I thought she was nice. She was so smiley and nice to me and behind me, she said i was too weird and fat. Yeah, i may be weird amd fat.. But i’d rather be all these than to ever be like u. Bitch. Rarr! Thank god i found out who u truly are before i even became friends with u. I’d like to see what other tricks u have up your sleeve.. Ur cunning, 2-faced, bitchy sleeve. I pity the people who still are unaware of this. Sigh. To bad this concerns someone important to me, else i would have blabbed it. Grrrr. Then in the afternoon, that fuckin .. Arghh.. That idiot .. Cannot get anymore selfish and irritating and forcing us to work till 10pm. Wah, v imbalanced now. I need to calm down and be positive. I am gonna use the secret to make all these people disappear from my life. Calm ur tits, shirls. 😤 #roughday
Now i know the disgusted, hate feeling Michael gets whenever he sees toby. at least Michael is toby’s boss. arghhh. super grossed out by kke. rlly so arghhh.. i hate him!
Everything will eventually be alright. Going through a pretty tough time at work.. Work stuff are usually alright no matter how tough it is. Its the people that complicates things. Gah. I’ve been too negative about it and therefore, this is happening to me. I will therefore, be positive about it albeit how hard it is to be so. Yes i can! Im glad i have awesome colleagues to get me through this. At least its the world against one person, not the other way round. Yeah, im pretty fortunate already. Everything will be alright!!
The Office (US) will always be one of the best dramas/comedies in my life. i dont care if they dont always win awards. and pam and jim.. man, that takes me way back. back to the days when i was single. and i didnt mind being single because i was just happy to share their love. their love is the best love TV can ever offer. When i was single while watching The Office, i would always wished for a boyfriend like Jim. a best friend. and fast forward about 7 years later, here i am, dating my best friend. like pam and jim. JAM. PB & J. forever. i re-watched that kiss scene at least.. 10 times. only a true true The Office fan will know what im feeling. here i am, 12.30am.. crying as hard as i did when i saw the kiss scene. pam and jim is the best example of the perfect couple. really. they will always and always be my favourite on-screen couple and a true symbol of what love is in this day and age. even Jack and Rose CANNOT beat that. never ever. never ever EVER. not even bridget and mark darcy. sorry. no.
Sigh. Every pam and jim fan in this world would have … Loved this scene to bits. I think its by far.. One of the most touching, happiest, most romantic, well-deserved, applaud-worthy, most beautiful, most awesome on screen kiss on television. Its when Jim, Pam’s best friend of 5 years.. Her knight in shining armour who sits across the room from her, who knows her wayyy better than her own fiance, who cares more than her fiance, who is always so supportive and encouraging and always always being there for her, who secretly loves and protects her and yet, have to endure seeing her get engaged to another man.. Finally getting to kiss her.. Wow. Really. Sigh. I remembered replaying this scene over and over and over and over again. Best kissing scene ever. Only a true office fan would know how it feels to see this scene happen. #theoffice #pambeezlyandjim #themostromantickissontelevision
This is soooo epic! When dwight interrogates everyone about the joint he found in the carpark. Lmao!!! #theoffice
Im about to hit my quarter life, in less than a year. and i think that im going to hit a quarter life crisis. I dont really know what i want to do with my life. after working for less than 3 months in this firm, i have concluded that audit isn’t a place i want to be. I like to do the fieldwork and im okay with the long working hours and all.. what i dont like is that i make other people’s lives sadder than they already are. and i can’t not do it because its my job. and i need to follow rules that are set by people who are experts in theory but hardly know the pains of applying those rules in real life. and now, i have to enforce these rules on people who are just trying to make a living and are scared of me. sigh. i dont think i can do this for long even if i do like the traveling part and i pretty enjoy the analytical bit. but i just don’t like what i do to people. i’m just gonna give myself 12 months, to make money and complete my bond and give myself some time to figure out what i want. i will use this year to train my emotional intelligence and be professional and be able to be as aloof to people’s feelings as i can.
what next, then?
i don’t know.
i feel that im a failure as a 24 year old. i just found out very recently that my cousins and brother think that $10k is nothing. to me, $10k is alot. i have never had 10k in my life. in fact, i have never had half of 10k in my bank account ever.
and im becoming so boring and tired. and losing hair and looking so shitty. i see other 24 year olds and they are not even THAT dead. fuck. whats wrong with me? i have 0 grooming habit. i look like a bushman and I AM OKAY WITH IT.
oh god ohhhh god. what do i want? i would like to do arts and craft. craft, in particular. i’d like to be able to make people happy. and i enjoy doing craft. how can i make a living from it? hmm. i want to travel also. sigh. i have always been afraid to take a bold step. for fear of falling. and failing. which i dont permit myself to be because i dont want people to judge me. in other words, i care too much about what people think of me. gosh. :(