You DO NOT put your hands on benedict!! :( noooooo
You DO NOT put your hands on benedict!! :( noooooo
Willie & Julia’s wedding: my first and last time hosting at a wedding.. Unless i have an awesome partner like Martin! Lol!
Reached there at 3ish. Very rush. Because i had very bad time management (… As always) wished i didnt but yah, it gets worse every year. Rushed to get hair done and cabbed down to RELC.
Ended up slacking with the guys. Good catchup session. Talking cock. Then went for rehearsal. Lol! Was so nervous and i was all jittery jattery. Whenever i get nervous, i have this adrenaline rush that makes me all weird and hyped up and senseless.
After rehearsal, went back to our room and continued talking cock and all with the guys. Lol! Then prepped for the wedding. Makeup kept failing. Lol! So i ended up taking an hour to do a very simple face and dio teased by the guys ever since. Lol. Okay la, it was more funny than hurtful. So went down, prepared and after a series of miscomm, issues, problems, we began. Madddd nervous! Lol! I just kept reading off the script. Felt thankful when my classmates clapped! Lol!
The whole dinner was torture. I was always afraid i’d miss the cue and screw it up. When it was over, it felt so good! Like shitting after constipating.
I swear that, unless its for a very super duper good reason, im just gonna stick to being an ordinary guest at a wedding. No more bridesmaid, no more hosting. But i’d say i have been to enough weddings to plan my own. Just kiddin’ lol!
But good experience nonetheless!! Have a happy blissful marriage y’all! :)
Prepping for the weddinng later… Haha!
Theres something about dark nails that bring out the confidence in me…
… Is that we are all more adaptable than we think we are. Before i joined audit, i flinched at the idea of having to keep going to new places and meet new people. Actually, even after having been in audit for more than a year, i still am. But alot less nervous. You’d be surprised at yourself because you’d probably never expect to fit in. Well, even if u cant fit in, u somehow will live with it. Guess that applies to our lives. So, dont plan too far ahead and dont be afraid. Cus when the time comes, you’d be bigger than you’d think you’d be. And you can overcome whatever comes your way! :)
Reminder to self: just live in the moment!
Even if the day is long and hard, just smile. At least u made it through… :) #longandhard #imnottalkingaboutdicksizes haha! I miss my funny self!
I love travelling! Then again, who doesn’t? going to Bali this time made me feel .. alive. It reminded me that the world is soooo much bigger than the four walls of my office cubicle. After coming back from Bali and nathan going back and all and with the dust all settled, i have decided.
This year, i am going to face my fears. I’m no longer going to avoid my fears.
I look boring and nerdy on the outside… but i am actually more lively and awesome than that. really. but office work kills me inside day by day.. and i realised that this can be brought out by the guiding hands of mother nature.
This is my second time snorkeling in the big ocean (not gonna count the little fishing pond at RWS).. and its awesome!!!! i love it! but i was very afraid even though it really seemed to be very safe with clear waters and pretty fishes and all. everytime the fishes avoid me, i keep thinking if there could be a shark behind me. or i was so afraid i’d be swept away. the big ocean brings alot of fear to me. its filled with unknown. i would say, its a true test of overcoming insecurities and trusting the universe and myself.
I loved walking through the padi fields and doing all kind of nature stuff. ALL of my past travels since last year (well, its only been 3 so far), i have shopped very minimally. prolly buying yummy food home and souveneirs for my friends and family is the only shopping i’d do. i don’t wanna waste money on material things. i’d rather spend money on experiences. creating new experiences. i have always believed that money is well spent if you get in return the same value you gave in monetary terms PLUS SOMETHING THAT CANNOT BE BOUGHT WITH MONEY (i.e happiness, a lesson learnt, wisdom, satisfaction, growth etc) .. so yeah.
I fear alot of things.. especially nature because i dont have alot of exposure to it. all my life i have been protected by the walls of this concrete jungle. and i am really afraid of the unknown in the wilderness and the sea. but i LOVE IT. it always reminds me that my world is very very very small compared to Mother Earth.
I wanna start doing more nature stuff. Singapore may be a concrete jungle.. but i havent really explored the wilderness parts of it. i will do it this year and write it here. i mean, if i can’t even travel in my own country, how would i expect myself to travel out alone? and besides, its gonna be alot alot cheaper and would be a good training ground for me to fill up my book of adventures.
I may be a nerd, but i know that’s not all to who i am. I love fun. I love the sun. I love to be out there. its just that, i have always felt that i might be too nerdy, too fat, too boring and its too dangerous out there to do the things i wanna do. hmmm. but then again, i think people are the most dangerous of all danger ever. haha!
One day, i will trek the base of mount everest! :D LET’S DO IT!!!!
I have been safe and lazy enough for 6 months. that’s enough. im not getting any younger. i need to do this. and i will!!
i hope i keep this up! :D
Nathan has gone back. For a good few months. New year is over. Chinese new year is over. Vacation is over. Valentines day is over. Everything is over. Whats left is an exam, getting through peak period and long distance relationship and strained ties w my mother.
Looks bleak. Blah.
And today, my happy days begin! Well, im usually pretty happy already. So these are gonna be happier days ahead! My boy is coming home for a week aaaaand im off to bali! For 4 days.
I cant wait for the day when a 4 day trip is gonna sound as exciting to me as taking the bus.
Anywayyyy, BALI! Im abit afraid actually.. Cus there were 7 japanese women who were swept away very very recently in bali. Welp, all’s good. Cant wait to take in some sand and sun!
Alas! I have become a millionaire! In fact, i am the woman behind 4 million (rupiahs, but who cares?!) ha!
Tomorrow the boy will be back :)
A monday-blueless monday! Because this is gonna be one HAPPY and BUSY week ahead. Ma boy is coming in on wed and we’d be flying FLYING off on friday! :)
I feel its too short.. But it beats nothing. :) so happy!! And eggcitedddd!!!
Actually, i think im more eggcited to spend time with the boy than anything else! Yayyy!
Wanderlusting at last!
Every dark cloud has a silver lining.. :) stay positive! The world is amazing. We have to remember that the world is way way wayyyyy bigger than our own world. Perhaps, just taking a step outside to look at the sky will remind you of that. Whatever problems you have, just remember that in the context of this big, beautiful planet, those problems u have are actually very very very small.